How many times does it happen to you that you just realize after saying something that it was not appropriate/ needed/ crap? Regretting right after sending an email that you know would be read not as you had intended it to. When you really wished there was an undo button. But, of course, you can’t do shit. You try and fix it only to screw up further. It happens to me very frequently, say, once in 2-3 days. My friends call it my social dyslexia. And believe me, it’s not funny to sit back wishing you had just been a little more careful. And I die an inch every time it happens. It’s a pathetic feeling.
PS. Even though I am not a lyrics person at all, I really connect with John Mayer’s writing; he was at his best in Continuum. Excerpts from one of his songs, that couldn’t describe the situation better. I hope you are listening/ reading this.
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Kaman se Nikla Hua Teer |
Has got me in trouble
I said too much again....
Oh, another social casualty
Score one more for me
How could I forget?
Mama said "think before speaking"
No filter in my head
Oh, what's a boy to do
I guess he better find one soon....
And I could see clearly, An indelible line was drawn
Between what was good, what JUST slipped out and what went wrong...
I'm never speaking up again
It only hurts me
I'd rather be a mystery
Than she desert me
Oh I'm never speaking up again
Starting now... Starting now
One more thing
Why is it my fault?
So maybe I try too hard
But it's all because of this desire
I just wanna be liked
I just wanna be funny
Looks like the jokes on me
So call me captain backfire
I'm never speaking up again
it only hurts me
I'd rather be a mystery
than she desert me
oh i'm never speaking up again
i'm never speaking up again
i'm never speaking up again
Starting now, starting now...
